This is my first entry and I can’t say it’s an entirely positive one. My first thought that comes to mind in typing is, “WTF?!” Why? Because I went in to the YMCA to see if it’s even possible to get rid of the last pounds I have lingering (I figured I was done and the flotsam round my waist was leftover skin) and came away with a body fat reading of 32.4%. No. Fricking. Way. No, no, no, no, no way in hell am I still obese! I’m not still a fat girl! I won’t accept it!
Seriously, I lost 8 pant sizes and 10 top sizes. I need to buy size small tops since everything is too big on me now. No way in hell does an obese woman wear a size small top and 12-14 jeans. WTF!!!
I’m so upset right now. I don’t see a fat girl in the mirror, I don’t feel like a fat girl, I don’t move like a fat girl, and I don’t “act” like a fat girl. I like the way I look and feel and I’ll look hella hotter when the loose skin is lasered away. No way is that reading correct.
But, hell, the trainer said he’d like me to get under 30% in 2-3 weeks. Even if that reading was skewed by the 15 or so extra pounds of skin, I always feel it’s a good idea to build lean muscle mass. And that’s what the goal is: Build up 3-5 pounds of lean muscle in the next month or so. I honestly don’t think I’m going to get that reading under 29%; can’t do it with all the lard hiding away in the folds of skin, but that body fat meter bitch-slapped me with a white glove. It’s on.
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January 21st, 2008 at 10:39 pm
Forgive my asking this (you may have mentioned it elsewhere), but when do you go in for your surgery for the loose skin? I look forward to reading about that as I’m sure it will be something I have to go through.
January 21st, 2008 at 11:11 pm
@AstroNerdBoy, I was literally just moping about that very subject. (Are you psychic, or do you have cameras in my apartment?^^;) I’ll be no doubt posting about my findings tomorrow, as I spent most of today researching surgeons in the area. It’s draining to think about, and taxes the spirit.
Feel free to ask about anything pertaining to weight loss; I’m not shy. When I started sagging, I realized I’d need surgery, but haven’t thought about it in detail till now. I focused on the moment when I was losing the majority of the weight, and that got me through some dark times.
Good luck on your journey and I’ll keep you posted on what I learn!